... That's a really nice lyrics some song's Beatles say.. its a really good quote. And it's also so inspiring...

 

But at some point i feel sad because of some of the people i most love say this doesn't worth, my love, my life, my Art, this feeling i got about my Passion, Design, Create, and all this stuff  I L-O-V-E. I'm not receiving any of the support I need to feel good with my life. I know its for me.. but I also feel that to go with any of emotional support doesn't fit very well for me. I need to feel my mum is ok, M is ok, friends, people.. i just wanna a lil' push. Not so alone.

 

This is in a down way because even when everybody knows I'm dying to know more and more about Desing, Learn and Stuff, nobody wants me in this business. M because of the money, I really hate when he says that, because i feel myself an artist, I dont feel money such a big deal, not for me. I'm blessed for all my mother has done for me and I really appreciate it. But for that same reason she doesn't wanna let me go.. I know im the master here, in my work, but mother!!!... you must to know your daughter need to spread her wings.. to conquer another horizons, to know another places, people, sensations, just to live, her own LIFE.

 

My former sentence.. means everything for me this last days, she has put some obstacles in my way to "Freedom", I dont mean i wanna go far away from my house, my mother, our business, my job, and everything, i just wanna know, wanna lose the clue of my past 23 years, not to be here, in the same old oxided way my life has nowadays.

 

That is something sad, i dont know how to face it without feel alone with myself in this aventure. And its really Ugly and InsanE when people tell you "Dont Do IT" just because of.... whatever... but.. "Just dont do it", NOW I know how people feel listening and receiving zero support from others.. just negations.

 

I wanna say them, ::: GO A HEAD.. YOU CAN!!!! ::: , also, viewing my own face at the same time. Feeling this: I dont need from another people to do what i really want. Seriously.. it requires a brave soul and courage to face it with aplomb, integrity, and all your heart, if I really want I will do it. And it doesn't need another question about.

 

 And talking about ADVENTURES... this is my life's adventure!.. Just Mine. I will do it for me and for nobody else. Because i can only feel this I feel.. and I can only see this I see. Nobody understand, nobody gives me the support, and ok.. this is the same fucking vicious circle I HATE TO REMEMBER. Because i wanna cry when I feel alone in my dreams..

 

But its the same contradiction at the same time.. FUCK!! if it is  M Y      D R E A M ... I'm saying that. MY...

but

...FOLLOW THE COLOUR OF YOUR DREAMS...

 

Much Peace & Much Love!!

 

LUU... in The zZz Port for 4 months.. yeah

Living la vida.. mUchos XoxoXO